Don't Ever Tell Me I Can't Do Something !!!

On Wednesday December 7, 2011 I started with a personal trainer. My Goal is not huge. I want to be fit. I want to be healthy. I know, Im not a fat cow. LOL So don't say "Hey you are not fat !" I know I'm not a cow but for me I know that there is an awesome body of a 42 year old in there just waiting to make an appearance. LOL I want to live longer and while I am here Id like to be stronger. Stronger physically with my body and stronger mentally with my confidence in my body.

I have never been a girl who wears her bathing suit out to the beach. I had to study on if I wanted to post an actual photo of my body here. I asked my husband if he thought it was okay. He said, "Sure, I guess there won't be anymore than normal guys hitting on ya" He thinks I am beautiful already. (husbands usually do)  I think I have a two photos over my lifetime where I am in a full on bathing suit. One of those is posted here on my blog. Over the next year I am going to post one every couple weeks to this gallery.....No matter how bad it gets !!! LOL 

My cousin Christy is supposed to be on this journey with me and I am so calling her out now by saying...I told you I would post my photo because I am to bullheaded to say I am going to do it and then not if everyone is watching to see if I do :) 

I am a 23 year olds Mom and a 6 year olds mom. I am busy. I work hard at most everything I do and I tend to go overboard on anything new that I am loving. I have an addictive personality and I know it. I know that I can do this but I must admit that knowing that others are waiting to see me fail has always been a source of motivation in my life.  So the story of my doctor that follows is why I am on this crazy mission to have ABS ! Yes, Real life abs ! I am bound and determined to have them in 2012 :)

Working the first day with April seemed like a piece of cake while I was doing it but this morning when I woke up I realized that it was a very very hard. It was an amazing workout. My hips butt and thighs feel tired but nothing like my midsection. My abs are so sore I don't know how I will do more tomorrow.

I wanted a separate spot where I can keep the progress up of my "get fit" plan over the next 8 weeks -6 months -6 years :) So I figured a blog post was certainly in order. Most of my life has been an open book on this blog and I felt like this was something that others could relate to and maybe even be encouraged by.

The inspiration for the need to get the new abs is simple. I got a call from a Doctor about two months ago asking if I was interested in free "work" done on my body. It was for a test he needed to take to complete his training to start doing the procedures locally. He is an awesome Doctor. I love him to death. I was so excited. Id take off to Florida and have this form of sculpting lypo and Id have these abs built into me. My butt would be lifted back to its youthful position. It was wonderful sounding. I had to jump a flight and be there the next day due to scheduling. It was to be thousands and thousands of dollars if I had to pay for it. I felt like Id hit the lottery.

I jumped the flight down the next day and was so very excited to have this chance to do the reconstruction. I woke up at 3 am with that voice. You know the one. The DONT DO THIS voice. I called home and explained my fears to Mike and he and Mikey jumped a plane and we made a holiday out of the rest of the trip and spent a week in Key West.

Why didn't I do it ?

I didn't do it because there are no fast fixes that last forever. I got scared. What if I walked out of there looking amazing ! But then in 6 months of living the same lifestyle and eating the same way I always have what would it look like ? What about when I am older ? What about when I would gain 10 pounds ? What are the long term effects from such a thing ? I chickened out !!! 

The Doctor looked my body over and basically said that I couldn't do it myself or I would have already. LOL   Ahhhh, A challenge :) 

That was the breaking point. The point where I said, No...the Hackney in me said, "OH YES I CAN !!!" And the journey began. I hired an amazing personal trainer who has the body of some unreal alien chick ! LOL (seriously you should check out her body and the amazing determination that she has in life) I am so very inspired by her !!!

I have only gone for two workout sessions and I feel so inspired to become a more healthy version of me.

I now not only want to workout but I want to learn to eat properly and as she said to me "Fuel my life" Not just feed my face.

I have never been more sore in all of my life. Seriously, I had two kids by C-Section and had a hysterectomy and I was not as sore as I have been the past two days. It is WONDERFUL !!! I feel better today and I am sure that next Monday when I start my three day workout week with her I am going to feel like death again. LOL

I know that I owe her a huge thank you because I don't think that without her and her inspirational story of transformation of her own body and the balance that she has in her life that shines through so clearly when you are around her that I would do it. I know that I wouldn't begin to know how to make this change in my body without her !

Today I ate Oatmeal. Something Id never do. But I did it because she said that was the way to go. She is starting a new class in January for how to not diet but "Change your Lifestyle" and I am excited to go and learn more.

Mostly I can't wait to walk into my Doctors office and take my clothes off and say...

Don't ever tell me that I can't do something !!!!  I am a Hackney :) 

So....Let the story begin..........

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